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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|01:58 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sabaton - Back in Control | ] |
School reunion was decent. Went out with four of my old friends afterwards and got thoroughly plastered. That was a lot of fun though, quiet little pub with a great selection of different beers.
Ended up walking the ladies to their bus and giving Chris a lift home on the back of my bike.
Lets do this again soon, first though, sleep! |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 22nd, 2009|01:30 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emilie Autumn - Shalott | ] |
Dag lieve oma, ik ga je missen. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|10:14 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
Grandmother died in her sleep this weekend.
I'm tired and getting ready for a massive larp-dip combined with the shock and realisation of what actually happened.
Blegh. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|02:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sabaton - Into the Fire | ] |
We already knew that my grandmother wasn't doing very well, last month she was diagnosed with cancer in the pancreas which is apparently very aggressive. We were told that if it went to her liver it would be over in a matter of days.
Sunday morning my mother had left our labrador, Sheila, with my grandmother for company. As per usual the nurses came in the afternoon to check, they have a key and all.
My grandmother was sleeping fast in bed and Sheila was at her feet.
When the nurses came in my grandmother had already become so ill that the dog saw fit to defend her from the 'intruders'.
She growled, bared teeth and when the nurses approached anyway(they know she's a sweet dog) she threatened to attack.
The nurses retreated and called out to wake my grandmother so she could call the dog off.
Sheila has -never- done that before, ever, we've had her since she was a pup and she's going on 13 now. When our sweet labrador feels forced to do drastic things like this its truly a sign of how sick she is.
This morning I got another call(which I missed at first) that her condition had worsened, morfine was already being administered against the pain and later this day a morfine pump would be brought over from the hospital. She's still lucid, completely aware of what's going on but her body is failing around her.
Its incredibly hard to imagine that someone that is still so sharp of mind is dying in front of your eyes. She doesn't want to go to the hospital any more but stay at home till the end. The doctor told us that this is the last stretch and she won't last till next week.
And when I sit at her bed and she holds my hands and tells me that she's had a good life but her only regret is that she never got to see her only grandchildren, me and my little brother get married, my heart breaks into a million pieces... |
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| Verantwoordelijkheid much? |
[Sep. 21st, 2009|11:54 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The neighbours redecorating. | ] |
150 gasten wijnproeverij. Over een uur.
Drie keer raden wie de masterclass moet doen en daar persoonlijke assistenten voor krijgt? Ik. Juist ja.
Mijn baas heeft een ziek gevoel voor humor. |
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| Karma checkout. |
[Aug. 28th, 2009|09:35 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | nerdy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Veldhuis en Kemper - Ik wou dat ik jou was | ] |
My uncle bought a new laptop this afternoon and because I spent a total of 10 minutes setting up the wireless he gave me his old one as a reward.
Right.
She's an old bird and some of her keys are screwed up but if I get a decent mouse she'll do fine as a mobile workstation.
Now I'm not very good with names, so some help with thinking of a fitting one would be nice. Richard suggested Vanguard already, it ticks a few boxes but maybe there's something better out there.
Winner gets a present, or a free hug, whichever you want. |
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| The joy, the horror. |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|12:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
Passed my drivers exam this morning with flying colours. Going by city hall tomorrow to order it and within 5 working days I'll be a legal road hazard.
Thanks to everyone who sent their good luck wishes through the phone, text or msn, it certainly helped. |
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| Still alive.. |
[Jun. 17th, 2009|02:48 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | Tipsy | ] |
I'm still alive just have little energy to update this journal.
Updates will come when they'll come. |
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| Humbug. |
[Dec. 24th, 2008|04:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Within Temptation - Somewhere | ] |
Overslept this morning and arrived an hour and a half late at work. Luckily it was only a 3 hour preparation job for the 26th.
I do owe my boss and the rest some cake though, apparently you have buy sweets if you're late. :(
Now I'm done, time to enjoy Christmas and family! |
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| Upgrades! |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|10:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | relieved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Within Temptation - Somewhere | ] |
Today I got some new parts for my PC.
Okay, I scavenged them off my brother's old PC, I can't afford to spend 1200,- right now on a new PC.
But new parts! Upgrade the RAM and replace that dodgy DVD drive that I've had since the year 0. I was a bit worried about the RAM, since my brother had so much trouble with it in the past but it passed with flying colours. I'd also taken the liberty of cleaning the case out and dusting the parts off with compressed air, it was due for a quarterly-clean anyway. I snapped the DVD drive in and, expecting no trouble, set the jumpers correctly. The rest of the parts went in, I closed up the case and booted...
Crap. What's this about USB storage devices, ATAPI compatibility and Secondary Slaves?
I reacted like any seasoned computer tinkerer would; I panicked. Took everything apart again and checked the jumpers again with the aid of my father's laptop(internet). Tried all sorts of configs on the jumpers, but aside from a variation where my motherboard wouldn't even power up I was getting nowhere fast.
Till I checked the manufacture date on the CD/RW that was still hooked up. Dear god. Problem located. I reset the entire hardware config to it's original positions and then removed the CD/RW. Booted first time, faster then ever. *zing* Tomorrow I'm going to try and fit in the new DVD drive.
In other news, I have a job that I've been holding for 3 months now and I'm making good headway with my driving lessons. Oh I get to redecorate my room on my father's expenses, something to do with a bad choice of carpet when he moved in, off-white.
Now back to Mount and Blade and enjoy my time off till my birthday on friday.
Catch you on the flipside. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|11:46 am] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Greenday - Basket Case | ] |
Your result for Howard Gardner's Eight Types of Intelligence Test ...
31% Logical, 8% Spatial, 14% Linguistic, 47% Intrapersonal, 53% Interpersonal, 25% Musical, 25% Bodily-Kinesthetic and 31% Naturalistic!
Interpersonal.
"This area has to do with interaction with others. People in this category are usually extroverts and are characterized by their sensitivity to others' moods, feelings, temperaments and motivations, and their ability to cooperate in order to work as part of a group. They communicate effectively and empathize easily with others, and may be either leaders or followers. They typically learn best by working with others and often enjoy discussion and debate."
"Careers which suit those with this intelligence include politicians, managers, teachers, social workers and diplomats." |
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| Players! Argh... |
[Oct. 22nd, 2008|09:39 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blackmore's Night - Ghost Of A Rose | ] |
I know, it's been a while since I did a proper update. Well life's been good since a couple of months and I'm trying to settle into my work at theatre 'De Spiegel' here in Zwolle, only dropped one nearly empty tray of glasses in 4 weeks so doing good I'd say.
Something popped up though which I need to write down somewhere.
For the last 7(8?) years I've been DM'ing a D&D group. Three of the regulars are old school friends of mine and the last two joined somewhere last year. All are also larpers or have larped in the past and they're a fun bunch to hang around with. For the last 7 years I've been doing the lion's share of the DM work, sometimes I get a few months respite and a chance to play but these side campaigns never last because nobody is really up to the task and no one really manages to entertain the whole group for long.
It's not always a fun job but I managed and did my best to keep it all flowing. Until this Tuesday
Recently we've been doing a spot of Dark Heresy, it's a fun alternative and so far it's helped me prepare for taking over from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) chaplainaldaris in our fixed DH group. Half the group was out getting dinner and I was left talking with one of the junior members. Apparently the campaign I've been working on for the last 2 years has become (and I quote) a 'drag' and most of them want to start over fresh with new characters. The fact that the plot now required them to do some thinking of their own and not rely on me force-feeding them every piece of plot and storyline was too much apparently.[/sarcasm]
I got blamed for punishing players that acted out of character Ic'ly, which is as I see it, appropriate. If you insult a powerful princess of the throne, don't look too odd when she sends one of her liege-lords with an army to burn down your city. Being totally and utterly surprised that pacts with Demons would have unwanted side-effects. Leading armies into battle like one would lead himself into one, don't look at me when the enemy ambushes you. I'm taking great care to not go into details too much when it comes to leading their fiefs and armies into battle but as soon as I give them any kind of decision it takes a turn for the absolute worst or the ridiculous. What did you think would happen when you ordered heavy cavalry to make a charge into a marsh?
It seems I have to personally ram every piece of plot down their throat or it just won't catch. They all agree that the current amount of hacknslash/roleplay is what they want but I have to make it work for them. None of them are capable of coming up with any decent plans for their characters, haven't seen any daring schemes or have been offered any idea's for the many personal quests that I've been advertising for the last 2 years. Their RP is substandard, but that was not a problem with me, I happily provided plot and stories for them to play with, until they started complaining that -my- work is not good enough. But since I have to do all the work, where does that leave the 'fun' aspect for me?
When I mentioned to the two players present that I was not in the mood to start anew just to take their 'drag' away for a few weeks(because hey; my work was not good enough right?) and it would mean someone else would have to DM they hurriedly backed down and told me everything was okay. Right. Unfortunately that moment felt like being stabbed in the heart, 'stank-voor-dank', would explain it perfectly.
Right now I'm considering dropping it altogether, my fun of DM'ing for this group has been taken away and I'm not sure it'll ever return. I have plenty of other parties(GM and player) that do return my RP efforts and are actually a pleasure to work with.
We'll see how it turns out this Saturday. I leave you with a horribly cheesy song that's been haunting my brain for the last week.
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| Back to work later! |
[Jul. 16th, 2008|09:08 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ace Combat 5 - The Unsung War. | ] |
Removed most of the anime intro's and non-dutch/english songs. Also promised myself I'd go sort out the crap I dumped at my mother's place after the Summoning. I hate promising things to myself...hard to run away from.
1. Put your playlist on shuffle.
2. Write down the first line of the lyrics of the first 30 songs.
2a. If the title of the song is in the first line, use the second.
3. Have your friendslist guess the songs.
( Read more... )
Scoreboard:
moriestiel: 6
phalar_reign: 5
selmaika: 4
svala19: 4 |
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| "My weekend could have been worse if I had went to Sonsbeek." |
[Jun. 15th, 2008|09:21 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blackmore's Night - Under A Violet Moon | ] |
And with that motto I'm trying to stay positive!
It's been a while since I made an (public)update, and I would say it's about time.
Didn't have a very decent weekend, I made 4 appointments and between not returning phone calls and people rescheduling 20 minutes in advance I only had the guys coming over on Saturday for D&D. Hence I was bored and still am bored out of my skull, not even funny anymore. I'm hoping the movie I'm torrenting will be done tonight so I won't be completely left to my own methods of amusement. Also need to find a new place to watch the EK matches since the people I watched the last two matches with upped and left for Vienna.
Then there's also the 2.500,- bill I got in the mail from my health insurance, god knows how or where I racked up those kind of costs. Going to visit their office tomorrow, armed with my medical history/bills of course.
Setting up the complete picture for my driver's lessons, hopefully I can start somewhere next month with them and have my license by the end of summer. If I pass the first time that is.
And last, pressure from my parents to pick an education and start on that next school year. I totally agree with them, I want to go back to school and I know that I'm smart enough. But my biggest obstacle is that I'm not sure what to pick at all. I was wrong about the things I wanted before, cost me several years that I could've spent in a much better way. I don't know what I want, I don't know what I'm good at and I have no idea where my possibilities lie. Having no obvious talents doesn't make it any easier, being a lowly VMBO conscript does not help either.(Slightly ashamed of that)
What I -do- know is that if I'm taking a course somewhere is that I'm not taking it in Zwolle. Deltion being the stick-up-butt bureaucrats and Landstede the pot-smoking slackers, I know that both those schools cannot offer me what I want. It's only 1 certainty, that leaves only a 100 more uncertainties to conquer. If anyone can offer some help, it would be greatly appreciated.
Ah my movie is done, one more decent thing to add to the list! Time for some fun. :) |
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| Geek p0n. |
[Apr. 2nd, 2008|10:27 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Enya - book of days | ] |
So funny and yet so true. NSFW, its Youtube content but wear a headset if you do.
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| Surprise? |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|09:42 pm] |
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| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dot Hack Sign - Fake Wings | ] |
I Am A: Lawful Good Human Paladin (2nd Level)
Ability Scores:
Strength-13
Dexterity-16
Constitution-14
Intelligence-14
Wisdom-16
Charisma-13
Alignment:
Lawful Good A lawful good character acts as a good person is expected or required to act. He combines a commitment to oppose evil with the discipline to fight relentlessly. He tells the truth, keeps his word, helps those in need, and speaks out against injustice. A lawful good character hates to see the guilty go unpunished. Lawful good is the best alignment you can be because it combines honor and compassion. However, lawful good can be a dangerous alignment because it restricts freedom and criminalizes self-interest.
Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Class:
Paladins take their adventures seriously, and even a mundane mission is, in the heart of the paladin, a personal test an opportunity to demonstrate bravery, to learn tactics, and to find ways to do good. Divine power protects these warriors of virtue, warding off harm, protecting from disease, healing, and guarding against fear. The paladin can also direct this power to help others, healing wounds or curing diseases, and also use it to destroy evil. Experienced paladins can smite evil foes and turn away undead. A paladin's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that they can cast. Many of the paladin's special abilities also benefit from a high Charisma score.
Eh, no surprises here. :) |
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| Hell has no fury... |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|08:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Greenday - Basket Case | ] |
Alright, summary update.
Rib hurts like a motherfucker.
Headache the size of the moon.
And the amount of whine that I heard about the Blackhammers last weekend is filling my bucket up pretty fast. I'm sick and tired of the same bullshit, I'm absolutely fed up with it. And you know why? Because it always happens just out of earshot(or what people think is earshot for me) and they never come up to your face about it. They always whine just long and hard enough for it become a general 'feel' around an event.
Well guess what? The rest of you idiots at Symbols aren't fucking perfect either. So the next one that opens their yap when they think I'm not paying attention will end up with a broken neck in a ditch.
Say it to my face, or don't say it at all.
There, don't I feel much better now? |
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| New Year's Resolutions. |
[Jan. 7th, 2008|07:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Zwolle | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nickelback - Saving Me | ] |
Evening folks,
Minor update, nothing on the 'me' front.
To be honest my holidays have been very nice, the best I've ever had as far as I can remember. Mel and Bauke called me on Christmas eve and asked if I wanted to come over for a couple of days. I don't think I've ever said 'yes' to anything so fast as I did then. I took the first bus to the station and the first train that would take me to Amersfoort. I spent three days there and they were the best, watched a lot of movies together, crammed up on chocolate and alcohol and least but not least Christmas dinner with Bauke's parents. Don't think I can thank either of them enough for those few wonderful days.
Oh and to satisfy Mel, yes I'm going through some serious Mass Effect withdrawal symptoms. I'm compensating with DoW: Dark Crusade & Republic Commando.
Then came new year, my fourth day of D&D in a row. The 28th was Kurt's temporary campaign, the 29th was my own Isornia campaign and the 30th saw my Brachenwald group running into some Wendigo trouble. New year was spent with a lot of friends playing D&D, it was mucho fun, Shadowbane Inquisitors rock! Trap finding&disabling? I can do that. Spellcasting? I can do that. Break the massive damage threshold? I can do that. Sneak attack? Yes-sir! Shame about the fog and the smoke though, couldn't see more then six feet ahead. Lost a couple of people in the fog but we returned back at huize Kramer without any casualties.
So, new year's resolutions;
- More exercise. I don't need to lose weight but some extra stamina wouldn't hurt. Maybe take up jogging or swimming.
- Getting my personal life on track, I need to get some structure or I'll go crazy.
- On the lookout for a new education, no clue what yet but I've got a month or so to figure that out.
- Read more books.
- Stick to a minimum of three meals a day, preferably six times.
And my bad new year's resolutions, this is what I'm putting on the line should I fail at any of these things. So in my case, if I don't get these things done I'm going to drop LARP events. Hopefully that will keep me motivated.
Alright, that's about it I guess, catch you folks later.
Rift, |
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